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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Crazy In My Head

I finally said it out loud yesterday, "what else will go wrong" and then it got worse! I have a lot of crazy going on in my life at the moment. I honestly am not sure how much more I can take and juggle. This is what is going on:

Living arrangements/custody with Y

School enrollment for Y

Medical care for mother-in law

Trying to sell condo/keeping place clean and tidy

Credit card issues with work

Employee issues at work

Tenant issues with paying rent

and the BIGGEST thing.......F was informed yesterday that it's 80% likely he'll be fired on Thursday!
The company he works for has entered into a new updated insurance policy on all there trucks. In order for them to get coverage every person who drives a truck must pass a physical. F cannot meet the requirements of 20 20 vision, since he has a glass eye on the left side. He was told months ago by one of the bosses that he would be grandfathered into the contract since they hired him knowing about the condition. Looks like now that is not true, or could take up to 6 months to happen. IDOT will not cover him to drive the truck, and technically he/company is in violation if he does drive. If he has a helper to drive the truck he could still do his route, but come on I know how companies work and why would they want to pay 2 salaries to do 1 person's job!! Granted if all this does go down F can work with his union, and it' a huge possibility about filing a lawsuit. What are we supposed to do in the mean time. What I need is a steady paycheck, and health INSURANCE!!
At first I was trying to talk myself down, thinking okay maybe it's not as bad, maybe he will be grandfathered in, maybe this will all go away, F told me months ago not to worry about this, and I listened (dumb me) last night after F got home, he says well I have really bad news. I had already had a horrible day, I could see it in his eyes, this is when he told me about how his boss is meeting with the company owners on Wednesday, and it's a huge possibility they will say "we don't want to deal with this crap" and fire him on Thursday. Am I really surprised?....no, with everything we ever try to do, it's a struggle, nothing comes easy for us, and mostly I have excepted it, I am just tired now. I'm tired of fighting and struggling for what? A better life, giving our kids what we didn't have? Are we really doing this? I don't feel we are.
I'm stressed....I know, I'm going to calm it down till Thursday to see what happens.

2 comments:

Kate said...

I do hope things get better for you soon.

Mrs. Starman said...

I am sorry that you are under so much pressure. I can't tell you that things will be easier, but I can tell you that I have faith that they will work out in the end. While that doesn't mean much now, I am always available to listen.
Thinking about you and your family...