Update: Crazy In My Head

Past 48 hours has been an emotional rollercoaster, one I've personally kept to myself. Yes, F and I have discussed the issues, and gone over different sceranio's, I've listened to him, yell, rant and rave, talk, watch him be sad and upset. I haven't felt it appropraite to show my reactions to him. I cannot imagine how he must be feeling inside. I can see the pain in his face. I have been supportive, and taken the kids out of the house so he can just "be" by himself. We really don't have Y to know whats going on, especially since we are not sure of the outcome yet.
F has spoken to his union rep, and to 3 lawyers yesterday, figuring out what options we may have. His boss called to tell him not to come into work today or tomorrow,(boss called again, he is to come in tomorrow now) they needed time to figure out what to do, which we both just felt was their way of stalling. F will be helping someone else on a route, and learning it, this way he could possibly run it himself since it's a smaller truck, until they hear back from the state on whether or not he will be grandfathered in. This is semi good news, he wont miss holiday pay, and he's only lost 1 day of pay this week. I can handle that.
I know that even if F gets the IDOT card, he will be looking for another job. He feels completely screwed by his boss, and the company, and doesn't want to work for dishonest people. I agree, yet wonder who really is honest anymore? Who has morals? and Who really misses sleep because of wrongs they did to other people? I just don't have much faith in people anymore. Nothing is definate, so I want to be thankful that F can return to work, (but for how long? will this route screw him over more?)
I worry, guess because that is all I can do right now.
F plans to take it one day at a time, see what options he still has, and make sure we're covered insurance wise, sell the condo, buy the house, all before he needs to get a new job. IDOT will take 1-6 months for a response on the grandfather clause, so hopefully all these things can be accomplished.
I hope F will find some way of dealing with his emotions, and letting go of the hurt. This will take a lot of time.

Positive thoughts everyone!